AMAZING

When I wrote this song, it was 1996 and I was a freshman in Bible College in Peterborough,ON. I remember the piano it came to me on in Classroom E. I was sitting and playing and worshipping God – or at least trying to. But I was feeling very unworthy of even approaching God at all.

I had been a Christian of sorts since I was 7. But not a very good one I didn’t think. It seemed like I fell more than I stood. Maybe not everyone knew that all the time, but I knew. How could God still be patient with me after I struggled with the same things over and over for years? He must be sick of my garbage by now. I wanted to approach God again, but felt condemned.

There would be people down the road that would think this song was missing an element of repentance in the lyrics. I guess I never thought to write them in, because from where I was at in that moment, it was ALL about repentance. This song was written out of repentance and God came and encouraged me back with these lyrics about him: “You know everything and you still love me”

After 8 years of singing this song in places and hearing reports back, that’s the line that people mention all the time. I guess it isn’t just me that has felt unlovable. We’ve all fallen short more times that we’d care to admit. Some days a thought will cross my mind and surprise me and I’ll just say to God: “Lord help me! My heart, at its core, is so wicked!” None of us have arrived. But it’s HIS KINDNESS that leads us to repentance. It’s Him that loved us FIRST. It’s His constant, unfailing, patient love that is so amazing that it makes us cling to Him - the one unchanging thing in life. God is faithful and worthy of praise, for now and forevermore!